Mythos & Marginalia

2015 – 2025: a decade of days


  • of memory and memories

    What we think of today is not necessarily important, but what is remembered tomorrow most certainly is.

    Information flows at a faster rate than ever before, in a volume greater than we are able to control, comprehend, or absorb. Scientists have resolved that human beings take in five times as much information than we did 30 years ago; the equivalent of 175 newspapers (given the dwindling size of today’s newspapers, this comparison is indeed subjective).

    Not including what we take in on a need-to-know basis in our working lives, it is estimated we process more than 100,000 words, or 34 gigabytes of data, daily, exclusive of the idle hours spent in front of the television, or clicking away at video feeds on our laptops, tablets and mobile devices.

    The impact of this information overload not only impacts our memory, but our memories. I am fascinated not only by what we can remember, but also by what we forget.

    The human mind is an amazing commodity. We can marvel at what we, or others, think of, but even more remarkable is where our memories come from, or how they are stored. In the most simplistic terms, our memory is a filing cabinet where we tuck away thoughts with scraps of knowledge, addresses and directions, useless facts, and an assortment of utter bullshit. A more digital representation is one of folders and files we store on our organic hard drive.

    It was once thought there was a central point in the brain that stored all this data, but developments in recent years indicate there is not one particular place, but memory is distributed, albeit inequitably, throughout our grey matter. Further confusing is that several parts of the brain must work together to remember one simple task.

    Remember the adage It’s like riding a bike? Well, that alone requires the brain to use several components of this stored memory. The recall of the body’s physical motion comes from one part of the brain, the memory of how to operate the bike from another. It becomes further complicated when you throw in the reason you climbed on the bike in the first place, and decide where to go (the nature of how much thinking is required to ride a bike further reinforces the need to wear a helmet).

    So why do we remember what we do? And why do we forget the important stuff, or what may have been important at the time? Age, and absorption of facts and figures, does enter the equation, but it still does not account for both the trivial and important information within our recall.

    For instance, I cannot remember many (read most) of the periodic table symbols I was forced to commit to memory in high school, but I can remember brand logos of ski equipment, beer, and record labels from the same era.

    I can’t remember the name of the company’s recently appointed regional vice-president (whom I have met twice), yet I can easily recall the name of original Police guitarist Henry Padovani, or the redheaded girl I had a crush on in Grade 7. I remember her address, her brother’s name, and, damn it; I remember the hurtful words telling me I wasn’t the one.

    The names of musicians who played on hundreds of albums easily come to mind, but I cannot list all of this country’s prime ministers. I remember all 14 victims of the Montreal massacre (and can’t forget the man responsible for the slaughter), but could not tell you an equal number of newspaper colleagues I worked with at the same time.

    My phone number from 40 years ago, or 20, is lodged in my head, but I can’t recall numbers I dialed regularly as recently as two years ago. Granted the convenience of storing the digits on a mobile device has made life so much easier, but that’s beside the point.

    I remember my sister’s birthday ever year, but usually forget to send a card.

    It has to be more than selective memory for, if that were the case, I’d remember more of the better and far less of the worse. Also, the short-term and long-term rationale seems to be hit and miss. Why do we remember what we do, and why do we retain some of the useless stuff (see above Police guitarist) and allow the important information to get lost in the files and folders within our minds?

    There is a theory of limitations about what we can take in during a day, and much of the time the internal files fill up or become corrupted by the useless questions, comments, and responses that just happen every day. Do you need room for dairy in your coffee? Do you have a rewards card? Do you want fries with that? Can you spare a dollar? Slight, random, seemingly innocuous interruptions, that are not only harmful to the thought process, but they hinder true progress or performance.

    It’s like trying to squeeze an extra 4.0 gigabytes of data into the 16 GB on your phone, or jamming another 156 pages into a 1.5-inch binder; there simply is not the space, and you will have to take something out to fit it all in.

    You also have to remember to leave the important stuff where it is, and not overlook its importance as the new material comes along.

    With all these questions, all this information, coming at us, we are forced to put aside what may be truly important, just to get through the day. We also have to decide if it is important, or valuable, enough to be remembered, while we are paying attention to what we truly need to know.

    Once remembered, will it be remembered when it needs to be remembered?

    I believe that in dealing with the daily decisions, directions, and distractions forced upon us, as it comes at us, we seldom take time for mindful thinking and processing of what is truly important. There is not enough meditation or contemplation; just outright sitting and thinking of what needs to be thought, and not struggling with in-box clutter and credit card statements that simply prove what we bought.

    If forced to think, or over think, make sure you find time to make some of the thoughts good. If it is important, make sure it is more than a memory.

  • manifesto

    By design or by default, art is devised to define, or delineate, the reality of our time and the humankind it represents. 
    You cannot (therefore should not) take for granted the art that surrounds you. In any state there is an increased perception of life. 
    Art is life. Life is art. 
    Live with it.
    Art does not need to be explained, it needs to be experienced.
    Be open to the experience. There are no excuses. 
    Do not question the why, or the how, or when.
    Look at it from all angles. Art is as subjective as it is relative, it need not be serious (but can be); there is a fine line between the obvious and the obtrusive.
    Art is open to mindful interpretation whether romantic or reckless, concrete or abstract, physical or visual. Art confronts your emotions as much as it soothes your soul. It moves you forward. 
    It is spiritual. 
    Art is meditation, mediation between all that is unsettled in your heart and everything you find comfort in.
    Do not ignore or overlook your art; it is what you are and all you can be, if allowed the presence and place it deserves.

  • this eighth month

    It stops.
    Dreams, planted and paid for, dissipate with the season.
    The eighth month,
    forever a period of turmoil. 
                                                    Imbalance.
                                                    Injustice.
    Always.

    The heartbreak of August.
    Always endings, always there.

    Goodbyes believable, stories told from sixteen onward,
    a laundry list of sorrows, added items along the way
    from a boy to a man, to whomever I struggle with now
    and again.
                                                    I don’t know.

    I live with it. This eighth month. August. I have naturally learned 
    to accept. My prescient nature, not always accurate, but available,
    should I choose to pay attention to the whispers or my conscience.

    Often choices are made for me, although
    I continue believing you are where you are
    because you ended up here.
                                                     Can you know?

    This is not the season to hide, this eight month forebodes.

                                                     Always.

                                                     August.
    As quickly as it comes.
    As quickly as it goes.

    Unhappiness fades away, with flowers, with memories,
    with that freedom that comes from shorter midnights.

                                                     Soon to change.
                                                     September soon.

    Calendars need not remind of weeks, or
    years gone by. Each month has a purpose.

    The sky sits lower.

                                                     It waits.
                                                     It knows.

  • Patrician Grill 10:29 a.m.

    mid-morning

    breakfast special
    served until 11

                   later than usual
    for me
    eggs
            as always

    sunny and runny
    home fries and bacon

                  no coffee today

            pandemic quiet

    traffic is slow
    before lunch

            it never used to be
            like this

                   everyday fare
    Patrician Grill
    nothing fancy since 1953

    good food

    there 
             when you need it

  • leave a little room

    In my pack I carry a notebook, 
    day planner, a paperback, often
    my camera, occasionally a 
    sweater, usually a sandwich, 
    and always a piece of fruit. 
    These are the things required 
    to get me through the day.

    In my mind I carry thoughts, 
    a never-ending to-do list, 
    residual dreams, a purpose, 
    memories, and lessons 
    I have learned thus far. 
    Hopefully it’s enough 
    to get me through life.

    Travel light, or as light as 
    possible. It’s pointless 
    carrying around too much 
    baggage, or too many things 
    that hold you back. You 
    should know what you need 
    to keep moving forward.

    At the same time, always leave 
    a little room for the unexpected. 
    Whether it’s time, space, or 
    mindset, you have to allow for 
    new thoughts, adventures, 
    people, and the treasures you 
    may find along the way.