Mythos & Marginalia

2015 – 2025: a decade of days


  • how does it feel from the inside

    Collar upturned, scarf scratching 

    against the skin, eyes tearing as furious winds 

    find their way, we protect ourselves 

    from the intermittently indifferent month 

    of November. As only we can.

    Atmosphere duly moistened 

    by pent up frustration in joys not found, 

    unfostered friendships, and decline 

    in the value of our self-worth, 

    deceit flows freely in these darker hours. 

    Our hardened hearts impervious 

    to even favoured words, we can hardly 

    hear ourselves speak, and better we not.

    Each question delivered during these days

    cannot summon an answer; even decisions 

    arrived at in November will wait.

    December, with its warmer spirit and

    delicate snow is then a softer month 

    for broken promises or shattered hearts.

    We count not the days, but tolerate 

    this month of indecision, our time instead 

    sorting out emotions, impositions, 

    and lack of interest. 

    How does it feel from the inside?

    The bitter cold slams against our silhouette, 

    while souls cry out for attention, admonition, 

    gentle hands or comfortable shoulder.

    Even young bones creak loudly against 

    this change of season. 

    Even old souls forever remember 

    the intolerable month of November.

  • the obscenity of silence

    What happens to the sleep we didn’t get,
    words we did not heed, or tears never allowed
    to travel down our cheek?
                              Those weeks, or months,
    you refuse to speak of; what happened? 
    Then. 
                             What became 
    of the people we didn’t need, or like, 
    or replaced? Have you given any thought to 
    what you meant to them? Once upon a time 
    fairy tale or delusion. 
    Shared.
                            Then, remember 
    the personalities or prospects, 
    the ones where you didn’t have the self-respect 
    to introduce yourself to. 
                            Where was your confidence, 
                            or willingness to bare your soul? 
                    Easier, is it not, to confide in a stranger?
    Those familiar with your ways, 
    those who have read a few chapters of your story
    may not understand 
    your reservation.
                                                        Someone back when 
                           knew you well, wanted to know more, 
                           then gave up. 
    Or was that you?
                           Emotions enrich our lives,
                           as easily as they can destroy 
                           all we stay alive for.
               Is that a reason to hold back? 
    There was once value in vulnerability. 
    Now; well, you know.
              If you rephrase the question,
              are the answers still the same? 
                           Long past a series of coincidences, 
                               the obscenity of silence remains.

  • where is here

    In any language, a scream is a scream,
    a cry is a cry, and a tear 
    a tear. 
    At a sidewalk café or concert hall, 
    laughter should be laughter, and music
    should be heard. In a civilized nation,
    life should be lived without fear, 
    and with the freedom
    to enjoy simple pleasures,
    to give, and to love, as we do.

    Think not of them, idealistically, but 
    of you and of me. Life, and our 
    civil lives,
    now compressed to fight or flight.
    In any language, on any night,
    thoughts remain
    bursting with pain, the
    shadow of terrorism rising 
    again. In every country, our hearts 
    have been crushed.

    Restless night, clouded by sorrow and
    the news. The images, and views, 
    the questions, 
    the why, and why there. Again, 
    why? Knowing, without question, 
    it could be anywhere. The streets are 
    not safe, not tonight, in any country. 
    Where is here. You cannot see, or 
    comprehend inhumanity. Not on 
    that scale, or of that type.

    In every language, evil lurks, unexpectedly
    displaying its brutal cowardice. We cannot 
    be shocked, 
    for it happens, on so many levels, 
    in so many countries, to many people
    on too many streets. Blood is blood.
    Knives at home, elsewhere guns
    or worse. We see it. We know it.
    Yet, on a global scale, our minds
    are numb.

    Hatred begets violence, justice benign 
    against those who chose to 
    use themselves
    as weapons of destruction. We 
    are not safe, not there, not here. 
    These damaged souls believe
    in what they believe; wholly 
    and without question.
    If there is no understanding,
    there is only resistance.

    Prayers, or a hymn, cannot be offered to
    unbelievers, for they will not, or chose not, 
    to listen.
    Guided by spirits, their Gods, and dictators
    who know nothing but this atrocious devotion 
    to another type of mankind. Historically
    and now, they cannot know love 
    or recognize the value of 
    a human life. For they 
    cannot be human.

    Grieving, raging, and still, beneath our
    confusion, above our cries for revenge
    or retribution,
    lies a love, unpronounced but unfolding. 
    A heartbeat, sympathies and empathy 
    to the powerless struggles, 
    in every language. We, as a civilization, 
    in any nation, must stand 
    united in our sense of humanity,
    and do so with a fortified will.

    We must continue believing in love, 
    and hope, charity, and trust, 
    and peace.
    Right now, however, there is so little 
    to those words. We must have faith, 
    in what we believe, in every heart, 
    in every body. Difficult to imagine, 
    but we must. To deny 
    this resurgence of compassion
    is to give in to all this terror stands for.

  • harder to ignore

    It’s a moon, only a moon; one of many moons 
    in this incomprehensibly immeasurable universe, but
    it is the Moon we know. It is the one we identify with. 
    Burning more brightly than it has in decades, 
    people are talking like they’ve never before noticed. 
    Light reflecting, radiance filling the space 
    that is our darkness. It has always been there. 
    We all stare up. We wonder. You never wonder 
    like you do under a full moon. In awe of the light, 
    we seek out contentment 
    but do we consider what it illuminates?
    Not all of it is good. 
    There is far too much bitterness, and shouting. 
    All this blame and shame. It is ugly and unnecessary, 
    fodder for gossip and hatred, and worse. 
    Nightfall is a blessing, as much as a curse. The issues 
    that separate us are still there at dawn. 
    Many times we use the blackness as an excuse to
    ignore what is not always visible. We close our eyes, 
    hoping our problems disappear. They wait for morning, 
    perhaps magnified. It’s brighter, harder to ignore 
    what you forget, or neglect, or abhor.
    Is there a message in the Moon, all this light, and 
    what it might be saying? It comes at a time 
    when we need to listen, and take a closer look 
    at all that surrounds us. The Moon 
    casts its gentle wisdom; it does in any phase. 
    It does not have to be full to have a purpose. 
    The courage is there. Always. Chose to see what 
    needs to be done, what has to be said. Shine on.

    © 2016 j.g. lewis

  • looking beyond the obvious

    If you do what you’ve always done, you’ll get what you’ve always had.

    We are all overly-familiar with this all-too-familiar adage. As humans, more than anything else, we are creatures of habit, so it seems that doing things the same old way is how we survive the day.

    As we sort through personal problems, perennial predicaments, unexpected uncertainties, or unwritten questions with indecipherable answers, we keep looking for the correct result, the right solution, or a different outcome.

    What has worked well in the past may not work as it once did. Disappointingly so, we know we need more. It could be addressing a strategy for the office, mastering a specialized skill, polishing a manuscript, or realigning our fitness routine to meet expectations or soothe our aspirations.

    To get a different result, we need to look for what is not there by stepping away from the current thought process. At one time it was cleverly called ‘thinking outside the box’, but now it is simply an overused cliché. Everybody is now avoiding the ‘box’, so we need to go to a different place.

    We need to begin thinking outside the thought.

    In this digital age of instant, all too often, we end up clicking through any of the available search engines for answers. That, itself, has limits. Too many times, too many answers are all the same. Our reliance on contemporary technologies tends to confuse, dumb down our spirit (or curiosity), and lead us to programed or predestined results.

    The answers are not always on Google.

    Maybe, without even thinking about it, we are trying too hard. Stop that. Think a little less. perhaps the answer is right there; or there; or under there.

    An original answer is not easy, that you know. It never has been. In fact, you know you can’t take the easy route. You’ve done that, time and again, and rarely does it provide effective results. Think, indeed, but think differently.

    Look closer. At times the obvious solution is the most difficult to see.

    Of course, solutions to what seems to be impossible and improbable cannot be guaranteed. Most times the only sure way of knowing is trial and error. You don’t know until you try, and you need to try and think from obscure angles, or with a different perspective.

    What you end up with might not yield the correct result; it may not even be a reasonable facsimile. Hell, it might be the most miserable attempt at something you’ve ever had. But that’s good, because you’ve done it like you’ve never done before.

    An original solution, how unique. Aren’t there already too many boxes?