Lives forged by experience, altered by those who encounter the same things at the same time. Friendships mark our years, hold us accountable to our humanity. We discover most friends mainly by accident. Circumstance or circumspect, intimacy implied by mere presence, accepted as we walk, as we talk, as we see the same things at the same time. We come to trust, offer what little we know, barter our wisdom with that which may be only an illusion of understanding. An exchange in kind, shared timidly at first. We are vulnerable, to the same things, at the same time. Kindred, courageous souls; they too must confide, you try to be worthy. With neither pride, nor modesty, we place value on that which lies before us. Lives shift, locations change, yet displaced by age, distance, or devotion, a certain mercy keeps close those whom exchange, without further thought, the same things at the same time. We rediscover, even much later, how friendship marks our time.
I thought of you. Often I do. Nothing specific, not always. No particular time or place. No clear dimensions. Sometimes. Wide awake. Even with night on my eyelids. When you are not there, I can still think. I am moved by gravity or grace. It could be a mood, perhaps a song, the scent of remembrance. I know it as I know you. Daydreaming or otherwise.
Coordinates unclear, the first wonder of a new day. Open your eyes, light diffused, a little confused, gradually you wake. Go slow. Morning coffee: is there a better type to wash away remnants of the darkness that exists? A cloudy day any way, No need to rush. You sit and settle into this reality, every cell of your being readjusting. Recalibrate your emotions. Don’t rush it. No need today. Yesterday no longer matters.
Poetry in the present dictates internal presence, deep regard for a past only accounted for line by line. Words blur into one cohesive attempt to detail or describe lovers, past and present, and even those who were not as kind or considerate. Emotions realized, only at the time, replicated in a straightforward voice. Moments are accounted for word by word. Poetry exists. Our lives become stanzas documenting only what we remember.