Mythos & Marginalia

2015 – 2025: a decade of days


  • Again and Again

    After rain, or tears, have extinguished
    flames of many candles, diminished now
    to stiff wax puddles from last night or
    the one before that.

    Flowers wilted on the street, solemn vigil
    is over, but anger remains. Community grief
    is necessary. People hurt together, even
    heal together. When allowed.

    Until next night, or the one after that. Another
    mass shooting, traffic stop or another situation
    where race meets hate. Another protest over
    another death. Never changes.

    Again and again, lives once lived, stories told,
    never-ending headlines. Grief forever knows
    no boundaries. Another night, another life
    gone. Hate makes waste.

    © 2021 j.g. lewis

     

  • Look Away

    Gather, you beggars. Assemble 
    like pigeons, seeking morsels of kindness 
    on these filthy city streets. We notice but do not acknowledge.  
    Or apologize. 
     
    I cannot deal with all I see. 
     
    Any spare change? No answer. No chance.  
    I saunter by in my warm parka, well-rested, belly full 
    of breakfast. I know no hunger, though not immune  
    to the pang. Sunglasses shield my eyes.  
    I have witnessed too much. 
     
    There, but by the grace of God, go I. 
     
    They remain. Unrecognizable 
    even to those who have loved them. A person’s sister, somebody’s  
    brother, somebody’s child. A somebody; 
    another vacant bed or private hell 
    another excuse or story to tell. 
     
    We do not want to hear. 
      
    Nor dare to breathe. Ask no questions. 
    I am only what I ask myself to be. If 
    charity begins at home, what then of the homeless? Nothing. 
    I know where I will sleep tonight. 
     
    Ashamed. I do little but look away. 
     
    Filthy pigeons stare back.  
    Then scatter. 
    2021 j.g. lewis

  • Crime After Crime

    Enraged.
    Voices raised in anger, solidarity,
    and in protest of that no person should have to face:

    misogyny; violence; anti-Asian hate.

    Vital lives, already shaped by stereotype and stigma,
    everyday sins of a multidimensional world
    in a country formed by immigration

    and promise.

    Ethnicity. Here, in a multi-cultural city.

    Diversity and inclusion once a dream,
    now a tagline or social media hashtag
    nobody seems to pays attention to;

    except the haters.

    Now speaking out, speaking up over damage
    already done; the words and the guns.

    ‘Fuck your bad day’

    Time after time, crime after crime, hate
    is a virus we are unable to isolate ourselves from.
    Information and understanding is not enough
    to inoculate fellow human beings.

    They protest. More should.

    We are not in this together; some have to stand apart.

    We all have our reasons.

    What’s your excuse?
    What is your explanation?

    © 2021 j.g. lewis

  • Propaganda Or Verse

    Poets say
                   April showers bring May flowers
    So too say the liars, the preachers and prostitutes
    who come to express what they’ve heard, but not
    what they know.
        Unlike poets,
    the doubtful and the disenchanted
    often cry foul as we together mourn the loss of
    common sense and decency.
    A tarnished soul with a litany of pleas, a poet learns
    words are worth little more than sand if not spoken
    with wisdom derived from a broken heart, physical
    traits of emotional details, and second-hand lessons
    from third-rate teachers.
            It hurts to bleed.
            It hurts to need validation.
    Honesty is not worth what it once was, but comes
    at a significant cost.
            April soon, May will surely follow,
    and politicians will say only what they want to hear
    (like the prostitutes and preachers). Fraudsters all.
    Only the poet sees the crime, unless
    you know wherein the message lies.
            Society becomes as calm as it is
    corrupt, when we take the words of a televangelist or
    talk-show host as truth. Moving swiftly through topic
    of the day – fentanyl crisis or racial pain – they don’t
    know any better when speaking of so much worse.
    Nor can they tell the difference between
    propaganda and verse.
            The poet writes not of spring flowers,
            but of the dread instead.
    Whom else but a poet (or discarded lover)
    would sit in the rain and wait for tulips to bloom?
    Other souls think it too impractical, too illogical, or
    simply too wet to care.
               Them who cannot taste the difference
               between raindrops and a salty tear
               may never know bona fide honesty
                                           until they read about it.

    © 2021 j.g.lewis

    April is Poetry Month
    all poetry all the time
    right here

    poetry every day

     

  • Love Of The Pencil – 2B or not 2B

    Overused and underappreciated, the common pencil does not get the credit it deserves.

    We rave about advances in technology, the introduction of shiny new tablets and mobile devices, and we often hear about how the pen is mightier than the sword, but rarely do we hear someone speak affectionately about the pencil.

    “A writer uses a pen instead of a scalpel or blowtorch.”
    -Michael Ondaatje

    The pen gets all the credit, but the pencil does all the work.

    With a crayon, we learn to express ourselves with scribbles and bursts of colour long before we can even understand the concept of vocabulary, but once we have found our voice, the pencil is the next brave step we take in communicating.

    Probably the most important writing we will ever do — the process of learning how to form each stroke, dot, and curve of those 26 letters — was done with a pencil. That’s when we begin to arrange the alphabet into something meaningful; it’s when we try, it’s when we dare, and it is when we make mistakes. We learn, then, to rely on the eraser conveniently attached to the pencil top.

    I’ve always liked pencils. In fact, I prefer a pencil to the pen. Most likely, it’s because I am left-handed and abhor the stain that builds up on the flesh as you write from left to right, dragging the underside of your hand across all you have accomplished. This factor alone has precluded me from ever using a fountain pen (easily the most admirable of writing instruments) so I have, through the years, developed infinity for the common pencil. Yes, the pencil leaves a shadow, but it is easily washed away.

    Above all else, it is the utilitarian nature of the pencil that keeps me connected. The pencil is always available. The pencil is uncomplicated; it does what it does, and does so without promising to do any more.

    There is nothing confusing about a pencil. There are no caps to remove (or lose), no buttons to press, and there is no complex inner mechanism involving springs and tubes. A pencil has no clip and it slips easily into a pocket, or behind the ear. A pencil is economical and was designed to be used to its fullest efficiency. When the tip becomes dull, you sharpen the lead and continue to write. As the pencil, again, becomes dull, it is once again sharpened. After repeated sharpening, as the nub becomes too tiny to fit comfortably in your hand, you simply take a new pencil (indeed a moment of celebration) and begin anew.

    It’s not like a pen, neither an expensive instrument that has to be refilled with ink, or a cheap one made to be used and then tossed away. The pencil leaves little waste behind, and much of it is biodegradable, while a plastic pen is destined to sit in a landfill for years and years. But let’s not bother thinking about the dead pencil after its work is done, let’s instead talk about the magic a pencil can inspire.

    Quickly and easily, a pencil can make dreams come alive. Somehow the pencil makes writing a wholly tactile experience. I’m drawn to the romance of the hearty scratch as the lead meanders across the paper, the pencil sounding out progress. The trail of graphite grey left on the page, whether 2B or not 2B, tells my story. With each pencil stroke there is less of me, but more of myself. You can hear it in the writing, unlike a pen with its smooth ballpoint.

    While thought, itself, begins the writing process, the pencil is the next step, transforming snippets and sentences from the idle mind into a workable form. My notebooks and journals are written primarily in pencil as I plan, plot, and structure my projects and poetry. These words, what is written right here, began with notes penciled into a scribbler, random thoughts I jotted down, latter riffing with the reason before sitting down a tapping out the details.

    Nothing else feels like the true connection of the familiar hexagon as you take a pencil in hand and place your thoughts directly onto the page. Should you err, the eraser is right there. Pens do not allow the same flexibility; a mistake is a mistake, and those mistakes are often not editable, or are not corrected as efficiently. Show me an ink eraser that actually works without leaving behind a silent smudge, or removing the patina from the paper.

    There mere fact that permanence of pen and ink allows less room for revision may be the cause of silent insecurity when using a pen. We are more cautious when writing with a pen. As human beings we all fear mistakes, even more so the inability to make corrections. With the pen allowing less latitude, I’m more inclined towards the pencil.

    Pencils take the likelihood of mistakes into account.

    Responding to mood and emotion, the same pencil can just as easily leave a crisp line as it can a powerfully thick mark. Each stroke leaves a track on the paper, and you can be as bold as you wish, knowing you can change up your phrasing and rearrange the words with confidence.

    Not only does a pencil have a purpose, its purpose is true. A pencil will work anywhere, in rain, in heat, even in the soul-crushing frigidity of a -40 degree Manitoba winter. And it will work until it no longer can, and then make room for another pencil.

    In these days of debate as to whether cursive writing should be continued in the school system, we might even want to take a step back and look at writing instruments, and the use of the pencil itself.

    Laptops and tablets are used in the classroom at earlier levels, denying the student the pure pleasure of using a pencil and letting their thoughts wander across the blank page. We are blessed with fingers and thumbs (the digit which separates us from the animals) to hold a pencil, and the manual dexterity to communicate with our hands, and to leave our mark. I’m not sure the thumb tapping and swiping allows the same development of fine motor skills (or the thought process for that matter). Handwriting: if we don’t use it, do we then lose it?

    Now, I’m not particularly fussy about my pencils. I do, indeed, have favorites brands, but mostly I write with what is available. And (in full disclosure of one of my few nerdy traits) I always carry a few spare pencils, with a sharpener, in my pencil case.

    Like a kid, I am attracted to the pencil colours and designs often available seasonally, but these less-than-serious offerings are just momentary infatuations. Though I have a couple of skull and crossbones pencils I save for particularly dangerous writing, I’m pretty much content with the standard yellow pencil.

    Much like people, it is not what’s on the outside, but the inner core that truly matters.

    © 2015 j.g. lewis

    “No one has yet tested the pencil to see how many words it can write.”
    – Xi Chuan

    March 30 is National Pencil Day