It hurts to hurt.
It hurts to see others
hurting. It hurts to know
there is so little I can do
to help others, except
try to be strong
for those I care for.
I care more.
I couldn’t care less.
It hurts to care.
If I say I try
to care for myself, it is
not meant to sound selfish;
it means I know
I must be strong
so that I can care for
those I love.
I love a lot.
I am capable of more.
It hurts to know I might
not be capable of enough.
It hurts to hurt.
© 2021 j.g.lewis
we litigate our sorrows
mediate happiness
negotiate contentment
barter wisdom for unsuspecting logic
did we stop
looking
for the trust
for the certainty
in what we know
what we carry
veiled imperfections
spiteful recollection
accepted resentment
the perseverance of inadequacies
as we keep
close
to the truth
to the familiar
to what we know
what we carry
compromised ethics
unwritten guarantees
pathetic promises
admit what you have lived through
© 2019 j.g. lewis
There is always a reason,
there always was.
A motivation, the initial
inspiration, an explanation,
interest, enthusiasm or a
passion (even obsession):
what moves you?
It is a drive. But why?
More than the where or
the when, the why began
the all-consuming interest.
We all have our reasons.
We all have our wonders.
We all have our why.
Remember the why.
It is still within you.
© 2023 j.g. lewis
Indecisive indecision
anxiety realistically
difficult
to believe
as it courses
through thoughts you
don’t want
to possess
but you do
rather it possesses you
Breathe it out
breathe it through
a decision you make
and not one
made for you
Overwhelming
apprehension doubt
distrust
uncertain tension
Anxiety comes in all
colours
and dimensions
© 2020 j.g. lewis
Aren’t we are all working on something, whether we admit it or not?
What’s to question?
Can you, will you, make the changes you feel you need right now to support your intentions — or your plans — for the future?
Don’t go any further until you can answer honestly.
If the answer isn’t what you expected, remember it can be changed.
Questions change.
Expectations should be changed. Change them to intentions,
Go easier on yourself.
Be good to yourself.
Be honest with yourself.
© 2021 j.g. lewis