Mythos & Marginalia

life notes between the lines and along the edges


  • understanding

    Our view of love changes as 

    we age. What we feel, all we know

    to be true, is provided a fresh point of view. 

    We forget, from time to time, what it was 

    when it was something else.

    Perspective.

    All the mental aspects of affection and 

    emotions will overwhelm if given a chance, 

    but for the longest time 

    we did not allow ourselves to know 

    the certain realm, or definite destination 

    of love and all it is capable of. 

    It is more than physical,

    stronger than it has ever been, and 

    strengthened

    over the years and beyond.

    Empathy finds its place amidst

    individual passions. Understanding becomes

    the strongest sense of a relationship.

    As we age, we are capable 

    of something greater, or have we just 

    realized, now, what love can truly be?

     

     

    © 2024 j.g. lewis

     

  • experienced

               If it is now, then

    too long I have waited. Shadows of moments past

     blur

               one into the next

                  and I remained confounded 

                 by all that has happened since.

    This time I take for granted 

    can no longer be shared. I have already experienced 

    the ripeness of the moment, the cool breeze 

    that arrives with autumn, knowing 

               there is still so much ahead of me.

     

    © 2024 j.g. lewis

  • this age and stage

    About a month ago I signed up for a program looking into mobility and healthy aging, anchored by weekly two-hour sessions at a local community center focusing on exercise, nutrition and information with a physiotherapist, dietitian and public nurse. 

       The group-based sessions are “focused on increasing knowledge, skills, and behaviors related to activity, healthy eating and available community supports for older adults.”

       I am, after all, an older adult. I knew that when I signed up for the program — administered by McMaster University — that were looking for study participants aged 55+.

       It was only after I arrived at the first session and was waiting for the program to begin that the term “older adult” had an impact on me.

       As I browed through the information brochures in front of me, I read, over and over, references to this age group: “Physical activity for older adults”, “24-hour movement guidelines for older adults”, “Active Aging Canada”, and “Canada Food Guide Tips for Seniors” with a thorough collection of tasty recipes enhanced with key ingredients for “older adults”

       Then there was the newsletter with a headline that really affected me: “Looking to make the most of your Golden Years”

       Really?

       Is this the “stage of life” that I have entered?

       Now, I have not officially retired, I do not yet receive my pensions (government or career-related). I am almost hallway through my 63rd year and less than a few years away from receiving those lifetime benefits so, in my government’s eyes, I am close to being a true “senior citizen”.

       But I am not sure I feel like it.

       I am indeed at the lower end of the “baby boomer” classification, a demographic I have belonged to my entire life (and totally dislike the recent negative connotations of the term “boomer”). This group has aged, grown up with me, and is commonly accepted now as “seniors”. It is a sliding scale that begins at age 55 or 60 is, in fact, the age group I am now in.

       The decades have blurred one into another.

       But “Golden Years”?

       How can that be?

       I admitted, long ago, to being middle-aged. I think that started half a lifetime ago when my father retired and joined the ranks of a senior.

       But am I now what he was then?

       You are what you admit.

       I’m older. I have never really been accused of being mature, and since I was a kid was told, many times, to act my age. 

       How can I be nostalgic about my youth when, most of the time, I still feel youthful?

       Is it time to accept the obvious?

       I guess, if I am going to accept the seniors rate at the cinema, gladly take advantage of the discounts and special “seniors” offers from many retailers, and reduced rate on public transportation, then I must start admitting I am in fact a senior . . . or an “older adult”.

       I am.

       This week, perhaps at this “seniors” session, I started to believe it.

       It’s a lot to think about.

       This week’s session included a cooking demonstration, exercise class and a lot of discussion about living and aging. Each of the program participants are at different stages of “adulthood”. Outside of a couple of the presenters, I was, I think, the youngest person in this group of older adults (I still have difficulty writing that phrase).

       That itself is thought provoking.

       I am truly looking forward to retirement and have been mentally preparing myself for a couple of years. I’ve got plans and so many things I want to do at this age and stage of life. Most of my plans revolve around the sort of things that a regular work week gets in the way of.

       Whether or not these are, in fact, the golden years, or that I am entering the “Autumn of my life” hasn’t really been something I’ve though a lot about.

       But I am now. 

       When did that happen?

       How long will it keep happening.?

    © 2024 j.g. lewis

     

  • wordless poem

    Each line speaks in ever-present tense, past 

    shadows whispering still, amidst perpetual 

    foresight. Memories commence for a stanza 

    or two, if you are prepared to listen.

     

     

    © 2024 j.g. lewis

  • summer summary

    As summer fades, as they always do, I took a moment yesterday to browse through photographs I’ve made over the past few months to remind myself where I have been living.

    This will be my last summer in Toronto, a city that has been home for a decade.

    When I first arrived here, I began to spend many hours and days wandering the city with my camera, both as a means of familiarizing myself with this huge metropolis and also refamiliarizing myself with camera skills I had not been using as much as I should have. I was inspired by new landscapes and the sheer magnitude of the city’s size, and over the years have indulged in the street photography that was available for me.

    This past summer, as I’ve been focusing more on other aspects of visual art, I did not venture out with my equipment as often as I should have. Still, I found some time to capture images of the places and people in a city that now feels like home.

    ©2024 j.g.lewis